I almost hesitate to write this down as it sounds ridiculous to my logical mind and probably anyone who reads it. Only someone who may have experienced something similar could possibly understand the experience I am about to describe.
Spending a day with a lover in what I call blissful timelessness, those days that just melt into hours, you are so absorbed in the moment, that time and space become irrelevant. Everything is just about the here and the now, what you are feeling here and now, nothing about the past on your mind, nothing about the future in your worried heart. It just is. While I have experienced blissful timelessness, as I call it, before. This time was completely different.
As we talked and snuggled and just enjoyed the moment in each others presence, I some how felt connected to him. Yes, our physical bodies were touching.. but it was something much deeper and incomprehensible to the rational mind. It was a beautiful connection. Suddenly, as we touched, our bodies were charged with emotional energy. Every touch ingnited a sensation of pleasure, almost ecstacy. This laster for what felt like a lifetime, both of us feeling the energy, passing it back and forth, aroused by it, incredibly turned on by it, but not wanting it to end, no desire to turn it into sex, it was sex.. it was something much, much more powerful than sex, on some different plane. Is this tantra? We took turns asking the other, if it was real. Was it really happening? Do you feel what I feel? Is any of this possible? Really, truly possible?
Suddenly, I could feel pain in him, as I touched him, flashes of images from his life, that I have no way of knowing came into my mind. I literally felt his pain and intuitively knew the words to say to help him heal, I felt as if I could move energy in his body. I felt as if I was sending him positive, healing energy. It was incredible. I really was afraid I was hallucinating. Did I just say that out loud? Did I really just tell him I was sending energy to his heart to heal it? WTH is going on here, this is incredibly surreal... But... he felt it too.
I am not religious, at all, agnostic bordering on atheist would be how I describe myself. I have never believed in faith healing and all of that, but this experience has certainly opened my mind to new possiblities. Not on a religious aspect, but a very powerful spirituality.
As we touched, we were so aroused by the magnetic energy surrounding us. We actually discussed if we wanted to have sex, both of us agreeing that it might end whatever this was... not wanting this amazing physical and energetic connection to end. Instead, we climaxed many times over. We climaxed together.. our clothes were still on.
We quickly removed our clothes, realizing that the more skin parts that touched, the more incredible the sensation. We curled together in an embrace and experienced something, I cannot find the words to describe.. is it possible to cum from your eyeballs? Surely we did not just feel that.. lets try it again.. Can we climax through our toes? Holy crap, did that just happen?
Again, I realize how ridiculous this sounds to the logical mind... I would be skeptical had I been reading about this experience of someone else. But, It was real, it was incredible.
Again, as we curled naked together, trying to touch as many body parts as we could, feeling the vibrational energy everywhere, we discussed having sex. Neither of us was interested in ending what we were feeling at this moment, so we continued to touch and send energy back and forth, it was amazing and beautiful and profound and frankly quite unbelieveable.
Without going into all the details.. we experienced an other-wordly experience together., Maybe I truly can move energy around, is this my gift? Until my experience last night, I thought it was something about the two of us being together, some sort of symbiosis. Now, after last night's experience, I am more curious about what I can do on my own. Yes, I do want to experience that magic we had many more times, but now, I feel the strong urge to cultivate my own abilities, assuming they actually exhist. I am just as much considering myself a crazy person, with halucintations at this point.... but.. he felt it too... and, my back doesnt hurt anymore. Say it is all in my head... maybe it is, but if that is the case, it is true that most of us have no idea the power of the mind...
I am thrilled to be on this spiritual journey...
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